Summer Solstice Gathering

Connect to your inner wisdom & expression

Monday’s (6-7-21) waning crescent at pre-dawn.
What is ready to come through you and out — into being part of #NewRealityCoCreation emerging in this moment?!
This is our living edge of possibilities, co-creation, and evolution all woven together.

Beloved,

Marking the seasonal turning points and their “cross quarter” day midpoints by gathering together in community continues to be a living source of joy for me.  Thank you for doing me the honor of showing up — ready, willing, able — to play in a field of radical wholeness as we have done regularly for two years now.

That also allows me to welcome you to the 2-year-anniversary of my offering these seasonal turning point gatherings! To me, our gatherings feel both purposeful and delightful. I hope you feel similarly inspired — in however your unique flavor expresses.

The year’s cycle moves toward our mid-Summer (Northern Hemisphere) celebration, the longest day, Summer Solstice.  Our 2021 Summer Pre-Solstice Circle is gathering. It’s also interesting to consider that in many traditions, the “eve” of various turning point days is also considered a powerful space. That’s where we will play this time.

Is your name on one of the cushions? Are you ready to have your Presence grace the circle and amplify its co-creative intent?

Celebrate this seasonal turning of the eons … plus celebrate with me 2 years of offering seasonal sacred journaling circles. These continue to connect you within, to an inner journey space.

It’s devoted space-time for self nurturing and self-inquiry within this potent upgrade-moment that we are in right now…

For your calendar
Saturday, 19 June 2021 —
Celebrate the Solstice on Summer-Solstice-Eve (Northern Hemisphere)
NOON – 1:30 MDT                    
TIME IN YOUR WORLD?
https://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/

You can start now if you are called and this speaks to your heart! For this pre-Solstice time offers a unique window of opportunity to consciously explore and inquire…
* What inner #HeartFire, what inner eternal flame, burns most deeply?
* What speaks to you for release, birthing, emergence — that’s been tucked into your heart and your creator’s core forever?
* Remember the eternal flows of the One Life, and ask, “What’s next? What’s for Now? What’s the “more” that continues to be revealed?
* Where and when have I abandoned the present moment?
* And … How can I bring my attention, intention, devotion, and reverent awareness back here to magnify life’s blooming?

We will pick up (and weave!) these threads at the Pre-Solstice Sacred Circle!
Feel into the possibilities that arise anew when you …
> get centered and grounded within your inner sanctum …
> when you turn within for deep listening …
> when you gather your inner gems with noticing, writing, drawing, composing, … and then sharing (optional, and if you choose) …

all within a sacred circle of safety and radiance.

Truly, our gathering shifts the tide in ways we can never know.

Our Gathering-Presence co-creates a new reality. Trust this.
What will you weave into your #NewRealityCoCreation?

Please check within, if this transmission speaks to you… then contact me (via messenger or via email) if you need more details and want to register. ❤

If you already know me and the transformative space-holding of my work, maybe you are ready to register… Here is the link to do so.
Link to pay-from-the-heart in sacred exchange: Click Here.

Details to register
Link to pay-from-the-heart in sacred exchange.
See details below if you would like guidance around how to do this.
Https://www.paypal.me/BobbyeMiddendorf

If you would like guidance around the sacred exchange:

  • $15. minimum if that is possible for you without impinging on necessities; (otherwise, contact me directly)
  • $25 as the basic registration for this seasonal circle. A higher amount supports others for whom the basic registration is not affordable.
  • With $75 or more, you receive a 1-on-1 session to explore your evolutionary continuum for getting clear on your “breadcrumb path…” (AKA, What’s next?!) …
    [This is an experimental experience…More details to come.]
  • After you register via this PayPal link, you will receive acknowledgement and the Zoom link to connect on 19 JUNE.
    (However, it’s all done artisanally– by me– so it’s not instantaneous.)
    Https://www.paypal.me/BobbyeMiddendorf

With love and appreciation,
Bobbye

P.S. What is included: In addition to the circle, with its centerings, visualization journeys, prompts, space-time for connecting to inner wisdom, flows of self-replenishment + celebration in community; and the recordings to revisit these processes at any time … I offer a sacred space-holding  energy+frequency practice called Belvaspata. This modality holds the circle and all participants in an angelic wholeness from the heart. This is followed by 6 months of daily maintenance support from this angelic field.

Bobbye Middendorf
Inner Wisdom Guide

* Spoken Word Alchemist  *  Dream Mentor 
* Yin Arising Catalyst 
Mystic. Healer. Creator. Poet. Dreamer.

Bobbye Middendorf

Bobbye Middendorf, MA, is an Inner Wisdom Guide, Dream Mentor, Spoken Word Alchemist, & Yin Arising Catalyst. Her work invites Evolutionaries, WayMakers, and Visionaries into sacred spaces for co-birthing new realities. She dances this evolutionary edge into manifestation with Conscious Creators, Change Catalysts, and Dreamers as dreamer-mystic-poet-healer-collagist. Her synergistic process-work alchemizes what is in the way, so the radiant beings in her community can BE home-for-self. With that, new potentialities emerge, and each radiant Song of Self comes through in fullest expression. Together we are the imaginal cells gathering, co-creating new realities where all life flourishes.

Bobbye “… has an unusual ability to hold space by carefully tending to the creation of a safe and deep container, through the patience and holding of her deep listening and through her caring wisdom. The result is that one sees oneself and one’s situation more clearly, more fully, and with more compassion.”

MD, Ontario, Canada

“Your beautiful words and centering took me beyond words.”

NFS, Hudson River Valley, NY

“If you had asked me, I would have told you that I am absolutely not coachable (a character flaw, I always thought). I also didn’t know how to dream. Working with Bobbye is unlike anything I’ve experienced before. First there are the Aha! moments, which happen pretty much all the time. While I am still immersed in her warm and supporting energy they feel breathtaking and deeply personal. Then, a couple of days later that same epiphany has already become so much a part of my new reality that I am not sure if anything had really happened. Wasn’t this always a part of me? And then one day after many of these times when nothing much seemed to have happened, I look around and realize that my entire life, my perspective, my set of tools for coping and growing and co-creating, are not at all the same anymore, that they are changed to a degree I wouldn’t have known to even ask for. I am changed and my environment around me has been changed as a result. Dreaming and creating The Impossible Dream is becoming part of my every day. The incredible thing is that she never tells you what or how to do or think. Not ever. She somehow guides you to that place deep inside you where your own personal answers are. Bobbye with her golden voice, brilliant inner guidance and powerful “tool satchel” is indeed making the world a better place. Bobbye, I don’t have the words to sufficiently express my awe and my gratitude.”

LED, CA

The experience with Bobbye “… brought new light to something that has stymied me for decades! After I shared what I could articulate about the focus of my query, you offered one reflection that gave me an entirely different way to explore this blindspot that had frustrated me for so long.”

CMF, OR

…your practice of being in the presence of energetic forces, trusting them, learning from them, communing with them, sharing them, continues to teach and inspire me… Your unique example continues to invite me to trust and to acknowledge the many layers of growth that continue to evolve in my being…”

–D.M., NM

“…your presentation really stood out for me. Because yours was unique in guiding through an inner experience… even in a limited amount of time you created a spacious and deep experience that was truly beautiful.”

–T.L., NY

Compass Roses Exhibit

Cartography of the Heart: Reclaiming Our Sacred Interconnection

Map-in-Albuquerque-Compass-Roses-Exhibit
Cartography of the Heart: Reclaiming Our Sacred Interconnection
See the series of pages that focus on my piece in the Compass Roses Project — A public art project sponsored by the City of Albuquerque

You can see these links in the sidebar.

Or you can link here for the opening page with sub-links for each page featuring one of the map sites:

Compass Roses Opening Page features a separate page for each map-site on my “Cartography of the Heart” map.


Click here to view the entire exhibit online.

Equinox Gathering–Revealing Your Wholeness

Celebrate the Sacred Balance Point of Mama Gaia

— Be inspired to play in your own field of greater wholeness.
BE the living pivot point, the vessel, the chalice.

BE the Vessel, the vehicle, the living pivot point through whom the Earth’s balance point of wholeness is expressed. We play together in a safe and sacred field. Together we celebrate the Vernal Equinox (Northern Hemisphere) and claim our power as partner in co-creating a new reality.
If you are committed, dedicated, devoted to making real the intent that “All. Life. Flourishes,” then with reverence, you are welcomed here.

“The revelation of the Codex is held by many, not just one. It is revealed in the communion and synergy of many coming together as one, when the parts become larger than the whole… All life is connected — and in this remembering, we become whole with all of life itself.”

From The Gaia Codex by Sarah Drew

Cycles within cycles. Circles within circles. These are the ways and truths of the true feminine — that resides within every being. Yin, the true feminine, is arising, pulsing from within each one. We are her; we are that. And these are the ways that her emergence is imminent, through us, and amplified as we gather.

From my emerging body of work, expressing from my depths to connect with your heart-essence, together do we travel. We are the WayMakers, evolutionaries in sacred co-creation. Before anything else, we grow, nurture, cultivate, create our own innate and inner sense of wholeness. Curious?

Together, in sacred circle, we are bringing alive and into expression your + our shared unique evolutionary/evolving Presence. Together, we write, walk, dance, paint, speak, collage, cook, and co-create this visionary leading edge into manifestation and embodiment.

Out of the goo of the great de-structuring, our convening amplifies the emergence of a new reality where All. Life. Flourishes. If this resonates and aligns with your intent, then you are in the right place!

It starts with tapping into your own unique essence and expression from within this sacred circle of deep listening. Your way of co-creating a new reality can emerge in spaciousness and grace, with support and deep listening (from within) plus a generous round of sacred witnessing from the circle. Journaling is the suggested listening-mode. Please know that whatever you bring as your creative expression is perfect.

Together we center and ground into our shared space. Prompts invite you to deepen into your own listening-center. Noticing what shows up for you in the circle, then dancing with who and what shows up, magnifies the creating-from-within alchemy, beyond what you plan or even think is possible.

This co-created field of magic and miracles invites forward what, for you, is ready to be engaged with. You are invited, in this safe space, to listen deeply and receive your own sustenance, the ultimate in self-caring.

Receive!

Are you ready? Willing? Able?

My Intent, held lightly, is for these words to inspire, uplift, and attune you to your greater song. I trust that this will ignite a spark. Those who can tune into this unique song will be served by this sacred-space-holding. The process allows magic and miracles of expression and insights to come forward.

We start with seasonal sacred circles to honor the turns of the seasons. Much can and will be revealed here; and even more if you are called to deepening work with me and other WayMakers.

For Your Calendar

Saturday, 20 March 2021 at 11 AM MDT – 12:30 MDT
The US goes to Daylight time on 14 March…
To check (after that 14 March date)
TIME IN YOUR WORLD?
https://www.thetimezoneconverter.com/

I invite you to say yes to your own inner explorations and experience coming-home-to-self.

Registration is via PayPal in sacred exchange with Pay-from-the-heart, as it has been for the past year or so.
Updated suggested amounts for 2021:

* $14. minimum if that is possible for you without impinging on necessities;
* $23 as the basic registration for this seasonal circle. A higher amount supports others for whom the basic registration is not affordable.
* With $60 or more, you receive a 1-on-1 session of 45 minutes to explore your evolutionary continuum… See below.

What’s New this time

The special option — to add in a 1-on-1 support-and-sounding-board-session for a modest amount beyond the basic registration — has been percolating as a possible experiment for a while now. It’s a chance to deepen our shared understanding of “where you land” on what I’m calling the “WayMaker/Evolutionary Continuum.” This is not a sales call in disguise. 😉

As a group, we start with these seasonal sacred circles to honor the turns of the Earth’s seasons. Much can and will be revealed to you within this intimate group/sacred circle. Each message and each circle carries the intent for upliftment, inspiration, magic, and miracles.

Tune in! Listen from within. See what bubbles up — the appropriate registration amount for the group-only and/or if you feel called to  a 1-on-1 Continuum Conversation. You will know. Trust yourself.

After you register via this PayPal link, you will receive acknowledgement and the Zoom link to connect on 20 March. (However, it’s done artisanally– by me– so it’s not instantaneous.)
Https://www.paypal.me/BobbyeMiddendorf

With love and appreciation,

Bobbye

P.S. All who register will receive a recording afterwards for listening/re-listening, and in case something happens that you cannot make the circle in Zoom-person. You’ll find immense value in the centerings, and the prompts will take you to new places each time!

About Bobbye

Bobbye Middendorf

Bobbye Middendorf, MA, Spoken Word Alchemist, Inner Wisdom Guide, & Yin Arising Mentor, invites Evolutionaries, WayMakers, and Visionaries into sacred spaces for co-birthing new realities. She dances this evolutionary edge into manifestation with Conscious Creators, Change Catalysts, and Dreamers as mystic-poet-healer-collagist. Her synergistic process-work alchemizes what is in the way, so these radiant beings can BE home-for-self, that new potentialities emerge, and each radiant Song of Self comes through in fullest expression. Together we are the imaginal cells gathering, co-creating new realities where all life flourishes.

Looking Forward — Seasonal Gatherings in 2021

#SaveTheDates — The following are the (my best estimate) of this cycle of seasonal sacred gatherings throughout 2021. These are a perfect staring point! I appreciate you for your ongoing commitment to your inner exploration and evolution!  

These are offered in sacred exchange at pay-from-the-heart. <3    

(Northern Hemisphere)  
Currently all are planned at 11 AM MST for around 90 minutes.
1. Vernal Equinox   SAT., 20 Mar.  2021 

2. Beltain   SAT., 8 May 2021

3. Summer Solstice   SUN., 20 June  2021 **  > Due to Father’s Day, I may move this one to Saturday, 19 June. Let me know your thoughts/feelings on shifting this… or not.

4. Lughnasad/Lammas (Early/first harvest)  SAT.,  7 Aug. 2021 
(bathing in the pre-new-moon energies!)


5. Autumnal Equinox (Pre-Equinox event)  
  SUN., 19  Sept., to bathe in the Full Moon

6. Samhain / All Saints/ All Souls  SAT.,  6 Nov.

7. Winter Solstice     (Pre-Solstice event)    SAT., 18 Dec. — to bathe in the FULL MOON

The Long Arc of Deep Listening

AwakeningDivRadiantPresence

Feel Your Flow and “Unstick Yourself” When You Listen from Within

If you are facing blocks, obstacles, challenges that keep you stuck and stop you from giving your gifts or bringing forth a new iteration of your work in the world, then listen up! It’s time for an inner journey. And you do not have to travel it alone.

What we can do so easily for others is not something we can do for ourselves. Have you ever noticed this?

And if you are a creative, sensitive, intuitive, empathic soul, you are probably noticing the noise levels are rising in so many ways in our current environment and situations. The outer noise can be a source of inner stress. That inner stress can shut down the creative flow and even make it hard to hear your own inner wisdom.

An old phrase, “I can’t hear myself think,” applies here. Whether you are trying to think from the head, the heart, or the gut, the external cacophony blocks your ability to listen and to hear with discernment from within.

Without access to that inner listening, you can get stuck.

I support people to listen from within their own depths. What happens when they do, when they take the time to slow down and inquire from within, is nothing short of miraculous. At the end of so many conversations with clients and others, I hear a satisfied sigh of relief.  Time after time, they unstick themselves in the sanctuary of our conversation and time together.

It is rare to be able to do this for yourself, no matter how practiced you are with listening with others — clients, colleagues, friends.

Here is a story, the stand that I take in partnership with my clients and on behalf of colleagues, friends, and co-creators who are with me and walking this path together.

https://rebeccaeskeele.com/bobbyes-story-cocreating-a-sacred-sanctuary/

If this sounds delicious, and you have some stuckness around your work in the world and giving your gifts (especially the gifts that you have never felt safe to give before), then let’s schedule a no-obligation conversation to see if our work together is purposeful at this time.

With gratitude for you!

Bobbye

APRIL 2018 UPDATE: P.S. I have an upcoming beta-small-group-class forming right now, April 2018. If you want to talk to me about it, you can send me an email at bjmiddendorf (at) gmail (dot) com.

 

 

Apprenticing to your Great Work

The unseen. The invisible world. The Qi field. The Force.

If you are searching for your own Pole Star outside, stop. You are looking where it will never be found.

Sunset, West Placitas, by Bobbye Middendorf
Sunset, West Placitas, by Bobbye Middendorf

Do you deal with what is invisible? Powerful, foundational, yet invisible? The formless and energetic precede form, yet are also within the form. We’ve been taught to hunt far and wide in the outer world for hidden treasure. You are one who guides your people to find it within.

Let me ask: If you do this kind of work for and with others, who helps you hold the space for your own deeper dives?  The deeper you go, the more challenging it can be to do for yourself and by yourself. You can’t hear what you can’t hear, nor see what you can’t see.

None of us are supposed to travel on this energetic upleveling journey alone.

The energetic shifts in our world are palpable, at least to those of us with heightened sensitivity and cultivated presence of deep empathy. The seemingly irreconcilable polarities are being played out with startling regularity, with the space between the poles seeming to exponentially expand, the time between polarizing events now ever shorter.

What has looked like the “way we do things” is breaking down. It’s easy to want to follow a model, especially when things are breaking down. And that’s exactly the time that the model no longer works, especially if you are looking to rebirth a world that works for all.

From this confusion and crumbling, I want to help wise women like you to connect — and stay connected — to your own North Star, your own inner blueprint — the one that is urging you forward. It’s the core essence of your Great Work, the new story that you are compelled to give birth to in our complex and convoluted world.

The emerging new paradigm in business is calling all of us to show up and partner with it and all the disparate parts in a wholly different way. It calls us to live in a way that regenerates ourselves (in body, mind, and spirit). I sense that this is part of what you are doing, or aiming to do. The work calls to be done in a different way, and in so doing, we become apprentices to this new work, this new way of working, and to ourselves as the Co-Creator.

It, the work, shapes us as instruments for its highest expression and most potent unfolding. That’s not how things have been done in the past. We are walking at the leading edge of new ways of working, including this partnering collaboration and co-creation, all of which is coming forth in unimagined ways.

And the new story that you want to shape and share also includes embracing your people while raising them up– your Divine Audience, your soul tribe. These are the people who will appreciate and resonate with the “honing” that has been done on you through your lifetime(s).

[A Sidebar: Today’s #Quest2016 with Jeffrey Davis’ Tracking Wonder Community features Jennifer Louden with this question to unfurl your 2016:

Your Quest2016 Prompt today:

What’s the story you most desire to bring to life in 2016?   

What’s the story your just-right client most desires to bring to life in 2016?

Where do your two stories overlap? #2Stories

For more details on #Quest2016: trackingwonder.com/quest-2016]

I regularly inquire into these two stories, even creating Venn Diagrams to visually map the overlaps.

Your Shero’s Journey

We are hospicing an entire way of life,  we who are the midwives of new visions, Way-Showers to many who are taking up the Shero’s Journey (a concept I learned initially from Tamora Pierce and then also via Jen Louden).

Light-Bringers, Path-Seers, Wisdom-Sharers: We are unveiling the new in a way that shares its foundational roots with ancient, long-forgotten paths.

Put your dreams and visions to work, for now is the time. We are being asked to collaborate and co-create in resonant and regenerative community. Are you ready to articulate the song deep in your heart? To tell the new story?

Let us together bring forth from the heart of co-creation YOUR truest inherent value to be of service in creating a world that works for all beings and all life.

Happy Solstice, following the path of the return of the light. Merry Christmas, where the Light of Divine Love is reborn within your soul. Happy New Year as the path unfolds under your feet for another trip around the sun.

In whatever ways you celebrate at this sacred time, I wish you many blessings as you journey.

Creator’s Vision Quest By Train

Are you being called to create some space in your life this summer to move a dream forward? Is it time to create, to give yourself permission to explore what is longing to be born through your creative self? I’d like to invite you into the year’s Creator’s Vision Quest by Train!

 

Some of the wisdom teachers who will accompany us ...
Some of the wisdom teachers who will accompany us …

 

 

Do you remember the spell of possibility every time you connected up with track nine-and-three-quarters? It was the Hogwarts Express, and magic was afoot. This summer, step into your own magical, liminal creative space.

 

In summer 2014, I did a workshop for creators in transition, getting all of us started on Creating What Matters. This year, we are taking to the rails to continue and grow those dreams of creation.

 

On Sunday, August 2, I am leading an intrepid group of bold creators on a 25-hour creative deep dive on Amtrak’s Southwest Chief, traveling from Chicago to Albuquerque.

 

For me, it’s a long-time dream, to lead a group of dreamers, creators, truth-tellers on a train journey — an intensive immersion into dreams, creativity, and bringing forth the purposeful great work inside you. Do you feel called?

 

 

At Wolf Prairie, Cook County Forest Preserve, just outside Chicago. Connect to the sacred land as we travel through it.
At Wolf Prairie, Cook County Forest Preserve, just outside Chicago. Connect to the sacred land as we travel through it.

We will consider both landscape and dreamtime, though they are not separate. We’ll connect with the inner child who loves adventures. We’ll examine what gets in the way and how to consciously partner with blocks, obstacles, and stuckness. There will be a pre-journey playbook, time for 1-on-1 conferences about where you’re stuck or where you want to take your next body of work, opening and closing ceremonies, playing the Lightning Dreamwork game, and much more.

 

You’ll experience a spacious and regenerative deep dive into the heart of your own creations. It’s a chance to jump-start your creative process and get traction on a project: new body of work, course, workshop, or book. You might even decide to shape your life and its next phase as a work of art!

 

Here’s the invitation: Allow yourself to surrender into a creative dream world with the gentle click and motion of the train. We’re adding movement to the sacred container for generating a palpable momentum, infusing your creations with new energy. 25 hours (If the train’s on time…)

 

The investment is $225.00 for the immersive workshop (Train fare not included). Please email me at jasbjm(at)earthlink(dot)net to set up a phone conversation to see if this is the best step for you. OR text me at 773-263-7914 for more details.

 

A few words from your guide, Bobbye Middendorf:

I journey with sage-hearted collaborators, evolutionaries, messengers, visionaries, and change-agents as a powerful voice and advocate for the practical results they get through deep dives.

 

We walk together through the chaos of reinvention to co-create their evolving core messages, giving voice to the vision of their purposeful Great Work while revealing their wisdom in words they didn’t know they knew.

Bobbye Middendorf, Poet of Pure Potentiality, is your visionary (yet grounded) guide, a combination sounding-board and wordsmith.
Bobbye Middendorf, Poet of Pure Potentiality, is your visionary (yet grounded) guide, a combination sounding-board and wordsmith.

Savor the Silence

Lily of the Valley
Listen into the silence of the white bells of the Muguet. Photo by Bobbye Middendorf

Dear One,

Savoring silence and appreciating
the ambient sounds — sounds that
happen around you in your environment
wherever you are — can be a
beautiful practice as you develop
your “inner listening” muscles.

Note to yourself:
*What are you listening to?
*What are you attending to or
paying attention to?
*Are you connecting with your
own still, small voice?

This inspired nugget called
out to be shared. Take it in.
It’s for you to consider.

“The silence is as important
as the noise. What gets left
out is as important as what
gets included.”

–Sara Lawrence-Lightfoot
Author, “I’ve Known Rivers

*What are you leaving out?
*What are you leaving in?
*Are you noting the space
between the notes?
*Can you read what is between
the lines?

Ponder well and deeply, my
sweet friend. If you feel
called, use this quote and
these questions to travel
deeply within. Travel with
your pen and a journal on
the waves of sacred silence.

Let me know what emerges
for you in this exploration.

With blessings from your friend,

 

Bobbye

 

P.S. On July 20, I am offering an
in-person workshop in the Chicago
area. It’s a chance to connect to
your inner gifts and discover what
is in the way of bringing more of
them into the world. Mark your
calendars! More details coming soon.
Email me if you have specific questions.

 

 

 

Your ONE Thing

“Your ONE Thing” downloaded itself as a poem that urgently needed to make its way into the world. I hold my heart open, willing to hear how it lands inside you. Please speak. Is your ONE thing urging you forward? Are you yearning for a safe space for this ONE thing to make its appearance, to become explicit instead of invisible?

ONE Thing

What is your ONE Thing…
The gift not yet given,
and its ache of hidden yearnings?
What longs to be expressed,
What you fear to reveal
for so many reasons?

What is this ONE thing,
the voicing of which makes ALL the difference?

What is the ONE thing,
the being-witnessed-for-which ignites new neural pathways
and opens up undiscovered fields in your heart?

What is your ONE thing,
that,  expressed in words, shatters the wall of glass you’ve been simmering under?
Yes, marinating under that glass for lifetimes.

What is that ONE thing,
for you, when taken into the public sphere,
shifts the cosmos on its axis?

What is the ONE thing you dare not release into the world?
Its fragility, its beauty, its preciousness living so close to your bones for so long that to expose it risks exposing everything. Everything!

What is your ONE thing
(indeed it is your greatest gift, invisible still)
hiding its brilliance where you dare not look?

For under the wound
in the most painful place
where you will never, ever go (you vowed it)
what if your ONE thing resides there?
What if you look there
only to discover your light
shining all this time —
white hot fiery cascades on a scale immeasurable
illuminating a shadowy storeroom
its door sealed by the accretions of time and metavows of protections.

This ONE thing
the awakening to,
the saying of which,
renders all else null.

The void beckons and black holes are star nurseries
Embracing darkness as womb of creation.
Your ONE thing invites you home here.

What is your ONE thing,
the knowing of which
will set you free?

copyright (C) Bobbye Middendorf
9 August 2012

Chrysalis: Emergence At Hand

Turnarounds 1:

Chrysalis: Emergence At Hand

 

Pre-emergence before the chrysalis
Photo by MK Salovaara

This is the first in a series of life lesson stories that illustrate the powerful and invigorating TURNAROUNDS that we are all capable of creating for ourselves, in the sacred circle of our words, reflection, and inquiry.

 

Your Journey

Have you been on a journey of personal growth, spiritual development, and profound transformation for awhile now? Maybe you feel like something just isn’t happening; it’s incomplete; OR you feel like you should be there already?  Maybe you’re tired because you feel like you have been on this journey your entire life. “There has to be a better and simpler way,” you think to yourself.

Like you, I feel as though I have been journeying long and often alone. It’s been a precious voyage of inner discovery. And it has seemed like things have been “so close.” It’s like the mathematical asymptote: The line approaching the curve and never arriving.

A Puddle of Ineffectiveness

One day, I confided to my coach, Alan Hickman, that I felt exactly like a little puddle of ineffectiveness that wasn’t going anywhere. Thanks to Alan’s deep listening, reflecting, and training in inquiry, he stood with me in the sacred circle to turn it around.

First, I owned that, “Yes. It’s true. I’m right now in a space of being not very effective.”  Deeper inquiry told me a different story from what I’d been judging myself about and beating myself up for.

(You know, the old riff of “I’m stuck. What’s wrong with me and why can’t I move?”  And I’m sure you’re familiar with the “WHY AM I NOT THERE YET????!!!!” conversation.)

The Caterpillar Turnaround

The metaphor that arose in our discussion was the caterpillar. It had felt for so long like I was melting down from the inside, and I didn’t know who I was or what I was about. Everything seemed to be shifting and changing.

Then the Ah-Ha.  Suddenly I realized that I was indeed looking at the inside of the chrysalis.

Here’s what I could now see: By loving and embracing the stuckness, the ineffectiveness, the right-where-I-am-ness, I was able to acknowledge myself for exactly where I am — like the butterfly looking out from inside the chrysalis. Observing myself with love and compassion, I can see that I am right where I am supposed to be.

Butterfly on my Ankle

A few weeks after my conversation with Alan, this chrysalis narrative continued, as I continued to “notice what I notice.” As I practiced Qi Gong meditation in the garden on two separate days, a butterfly landed gently on my ankle. That was my signal to share this narrative. The butterfly wings are flapping to strengthen themselves for emerging from the chrysalis and getting ready to fly.

(Interestingly enough, I also observe that my drops of essences from Jane Bell, called synchronistically enough, “Emergence,” are nearly complete.)

The Message from Ovo

Another message reaffirmed my understanding. A visit to Cirque Du Soleil’s brilliant “Ovo” show, provided the image of the chrysalis in an aerial interlude. Pressing against the sheer fabric, the butterfly finally emerged high in the air, flapping its  (her?) gossamer wings.

Affirming Our Shared Emergence

These words too emerged. “Share this story and this image. For many are in the chrysalis and can use a guide, the powerful validation  that where they are is just where they are meant to be.  Help them to understand they are seeing from inside the chrysalis, and that their time of emergence is at hand.”

And so, for midlife, best-half-of-life creators of all kinds, global transformers of consciousness, messengers, change agents, thought leaders, awakeners, authors, and healers: I send greetings and encouragement from the chrysalis.

I’m with you when I say I know you are longing to step into your potential, to create transformative projects, businesses, creations, books, messages, ventures. I know you’ve been feeling for a long time stuck, stalled, scared, not good enough, or like you should be there already. Maybe you feel like you are trying to push the river to MAKE SOMETHING HAPPEN.

Emergence — Not Emergency

Allow yourself in this moment to relax. Know that you are enough as you are; and you are where you’re meant to be. Allow yourself to just BE in the soup of transformation. Be willing to flap your wings to strengthen them for your own emergence.  (Try practicing in this safe space by bringing your story from your chrysalis into this community of comments.)

Shift the DNA of Your Experience

What has been most surprising for me in this turnaround is that by embracing the stuck, stalled, scared puddle of ineffectiveness, I’ve literally changed my patterns and shifted the cellular experience of myself.

It starts with an honest acceptance of, and even surrender to, exactly where you are right now. Realizing and embracing that you are still taking shape  — you, your project, your creation, all together inside the chrysalis — creates a powerful self-recognition. More powerful still is to embrace your whole seemingly stuck self  — completely free from judgment, and with love, appreciation, and gratitude.

And so you can. It’s the best prayer and meditation ever.

Emergence complete
Photo by MK Salovaara

 

 

 

 

Solstice Greetings from Shangri La

2010 Pre-Solstice

Brilliant
SunSparkles on snow
mingling my tracks with squirrels’
Fluffed robins drunk on fermented berries
Crows sing raucous verses
The passing V of Canada geese honking refrain
And the gibbous moon
rising midday spectral ghostly blur
waxing toward Solstice full
in blue firmament
Magic is airborne
riding currents of
short days with mid-afternoon dusks
punctuated by window candles
Holiday lights like multi-hued
stars of an earthbound universe

Energies of Divine Feminine
a Shakti blossoming
within perfect
circle of protection
Embracings within yin and yang
the balance unspoken
yet profound
Festivities foretold unfold
celebrating rebirth
of love alive
illuminating
the innermost sacred
center of the heart
Divine Love ignites
whisperings soul to soul
Missives of grace

17 December 2010
Bobbye Middendorf
The Write Synergies Guru